I am~

end of work~~~
at 29/1/2014 my work end already~~~
haha~~
that day want post but feel tired and need make cake and cookies so don't update~
but how say...
I feel so sad when I want to leave...
that day I found something... erm... I think I am too sensitive or narcissism?
cause I work at young heart and the opposite is a shop that sell spectacles...
29 that day...
I saw that a man always look inside...
I though he likes kelly but Kelly say is me...
say seriously...
I got little bit hope that Kelly say true...
While the person no smart and bla bla bla... (lazy type le)
crazy le~~ I crazy le~~ haha~~
don't think too much then is okay~~
I don't want be like this~~
always though I like hat person and find that it just 3 minutes fire~~
haha~~
be strong and tell myself...
don't be like a stupid person~
don't let a word to change yourself~
always be yourself and do yourself~
^^

白色连身裙

今天跟老妈一起逛街，我一直找白色连身裙
老妈就问我做么我一直找白色连身裙
呵呵～
其实看过之前的 post 话，都会知道我和蛮喜欢婚纱～
婚纱真的很美，但我觉得我应该没机会穿上；所以我想穿白连身裙
其实白色连身裙给我很多启发，也让阿哥我觉得白色连身裙有很多意思
1）纯洁 —— 白色通常会给很多人像是纯洁的象征，所以婚纱大部分是白色
2）单纯 —— 通常比较单纯的人，世界没什么污秽，所以白色可以象征他们的单纯
3）纯真 —— 其实跟单纯差不多意思啦～
4）开朗 —— 思想不会太多，不会记住太多不愉快的事，永远的微笑
5）圣洁 —— 就像圣经说的，圣洁的新娘才能穿上婚纱
我想到的只有这么多
找到了1、2件白色连身裙，但是价钱真是不凡啊～！！
就在逛街时有个想法，想设计白色连身裙，然后开一间白色的衣物（连身裙，长裤，上衣等）
可是现在白色连身裙真的很少会穿出街了……
因为很容易肮脏……
不过就设计几件自己喜欢就好～
哈哈～～
然后找个设计师帮忙量身订做咯～～
哈哈～～
纯粹幻想～～～

the smile face... =)

today is his birthday~
I have post already~
I am the first person say happy birthday to him (facebook)~~
hehe~~
if I message him will he reply?
don't know lah... haven't message him yet...
later try to message him bah~
hehe~~
I don't have give him present...
it's okay lah~
I really like his smile face~
when I close my eyes...
I always think about your smiling face~~
hehe~~
I think I am crazy le~~
haha~~
really like his smiling face~
hope that can meet the smiling face again~ ^^

his birthday~

is that I am stupid?
today is his birthday...
the kawaii man's birthday...
I really cannot forget his smile face...
really...
is that I am stupid?
morning go to buy something for him bah...
give him some gift?
see first lah... if can...
hehe...

^^

hey~~ long time no update le~~

I am start working now~~

my novel loss again... It doesn't success...

I hope that can success once...

but I will never give up~

while I wanna try other subjects for novel but I also write the love story~ 

haha~~

I really no idea how to write a story about the team is friendship or family...

okay...

I think I need be stronger enough or try to improve myself~

gambateh~

funny~~~

today really happy~~ ^^

today feel so boring...

so I go to make biscuit and cake~~

all things I just make without think~

When my parents say nice

I really feel happy~

I just think the ingredients...

and think how to use it...

cause want expired le~~ ><

thank God that I have idea to make cakes~~

I really feel happy~

While today don't have any idea for the novel...

but I really feel happy that I can make cake~~

and...

today morning go to run in the rain

I really feel happy~

Maybe I will sick but who care?

I just want let myself free or release~

got some more days want to leave here le...

I really hope that I can gather with my church friends and play with them...

have happy day with them...

But I always saw them find one another and forget about me...

They invite each other but don't find me...

if I ask...

I scared the answer...

if they wanna find me...

maybe need use money bah...

some friends I always think he/she is important for me...

but I am wrong...

I am not important for her/him...

I just them ball...

If the need me, they will find me

If they don't need me, they will kick me away...

maybe the word 'friend' is a thing that I need learn from last year until now...

before 2013...

these things don't happened...

2013 passed...

I really feel release...

the sad year for me is 2013...

it really let me feel sad and lose...

I really tired at the friendship le...

I will try my best to do myself...

but they hate me then hate bah...

I also will be myself and be friends with them~

If they no need me as their friend then I quit...

happy~~

always smile~~

^^

don't think any bad things...

always remember the happiness things~~

gambateh~ ^^

fun~~~

今天一大早便去跑步～～～

淋雨+跑步～～～

爽啊～～

><

嘿嘿嘿～

最近小说可能要停止了……

一直想一直想，结果搞到自己头痛，

与其这样还不如先让自己休息一会儿吧～

已经过2天了，上次的投稿到现在还没有消息

有点怕怕……

今天先做些甜点吧……

呵呵～

准备过新年～～　＾＾

林凡——《明明爱你》

林凡——《明明爱你》

这首歌唱进我心里……

起初没认真听，只是觉得旋律好听

但认真听，听着歌词

歌词……唱进我心里了……

介绍给大家～

如果能的话，以这首歌为主题，写一本关于这样的小说吧～

但我不想一直挑战爱情小说，我也想尝试别的

所以，先试试别的

真的不能，再回来写爱情小说吧……

『愛情字典裡，距離不是單位而是一種感受；

或許愛情總要經歷這一回，即使剩下遺憾，也不 遺 憾。』

第一雙高跟鞋帶領每個女孩走向女人

第一次懂得全力去愛就算結局遺憾，也不遺憾．

這次不求聲嘶力竭搶救愛情，

林凡用真摯情感在你的心底鑿一座花園，為你歌唱

一句句緩緩有力的歌聲交織著淡淡的遺憾，

就像是一波一波回憶擊上心頭的衝擊，

隨著鋼琴的鬱鬱節奏與富有旋律起伏的鼓點，

搭配沁入人心的歌詞，

唱出了愛情讓我們勇敢，卻也讓我們不夠勇敢的遺憾．

情歌有很多唱法形式，但是當林凡唱出心中遺憾的執念時，

或許再多形式也就不那麼重要了，

她的歌聲的在你我心中埋下種子，

也許有天我們能微笑聽情歌時，那就是她最想給你的答案．

曲：鍾達茵

詞：李玟萱

編曲：劉志遠

不敢放心愛你 再愛就傷感情

保持安全距離 好朋友才是最好的關係

太珍惜太想繼續太在意 我們的這份默契

情願現在這樣　留在原地

可是我的淚滴為什麼不休息

是沈默讓我犯了過敏懦弱酸了眼睛

可是我濃濃鼻音為什麼不留點餘地

微笑快要不能呼吸　思念揮之不去的嘆息 偽裝沒有力氣

這樣明明愛你卻要騙自己　是我害怕未來沒有了你

不言又不語　不理也不應　是這世上最殘酷的徒刑

我只能　明明愛你卻要騙自己　騙到最後自己都不相信

我的在乎帶走我的勇氣　一個人自言自語是我習慣的回應

不敢放心愛你 再愛就傷感情

最好的關係存在著距離 相遇已經不容易

太珍惜太想繼續太在意 我們的這份默契

情願現在這樣 留在原地

可是我的淚滴為什麼不休息

是沈默讓我犯了過敏　懦弱酸了眼睛

可是我濃濃鼻音　為什麼不留點餘地

微笑快要不能呼吸　思念揮之不去的嘆息　偽裝沒有力氣

這樣明明愛你卻要騙自己　是我害怕未來沒有了你

不言又不語不理也不應　是這世上最殘酷的徒刑

我只能　明明愛你卻要騙自己　騙到最後自己都不相信

我的在乎帶走我的勇氣 不問可不可以就不擔心會失去

這樣明明愛你卻要騙自己　是我害怕未來沒有了你

不言又不語 不理也不應　是這世上最殘酷的徒刑

我只能 明明愛你卻要騙自己　騙到最後自己都不相信

我的在乎帶走我的勇氣　不問可不可以留在愛你的原地

today & yesterday...

……
why mobile cannot upload post o...
sad case...
yesterday a...
a person lonely do everything...
but thank for malvin and bong can fetch me...
eh~
I saw him~ yesterday at church...
he is so cute~
his smile... really cute~
how I say? maybe I love the smile of the man~
So I was attracted by him bah...
hehe~
but I really feel tired...
I cannot find out any topics for the novel...
I am sad...
I was crazy!!
headache...
God...
please help me find put the feeling about him...
can let me know the answer? please...
and let me always can hear about tour voice...
I wait for the answer...

第2次投稿～

hehe~~
really so happy~~~
今天投稿了～～
已经是第二次尝试了～～
常常关注我部落格的一定知道这次我挑战的也是爱情小说
不过这次是虚假的，只是我在梦里梦到的
所以这次的作品，我名为《梦中情人》
故事其实很简单……
全部都在讲梦～～
1. 意外
2. 相见
3. 朋友离别
4. 感觉
5. 误会
6. 失恋
7. 表白
8. 回忆
9. 清醒
10. 寻找
11. 男的心得
12. happy ending~
这就是这本小说的样子～～
我希望这次会成功，不过……这本我没有分章节的……
希望不会怎样……
因为这本我真的不知该怎样分章节……
加油吧～～
现在即将挑战第3本了～～
这次应该不会再挑战爱情的吧……
因为已经写了2次爱情的……
可能是友情，亲情，灵异，还是恐怖呢？
看到这个的，请留言给我吧～ 谢谢～ ^^

chat~~~

hey~~~
today chat with him o~~
hooray~~~~
hehe~~
confirm date le...
9/2/14 take plane go to KL then 11/2 start the class...
but need learn around 8-9 months...
when I back to Miri, I think the drama also start practice end le...
Lucky last year got attend~~
hehe~~
I really happy that I can chat with him~~
hope that I can chat with him again~~ ^^

9/1/2014

9/1/2014...
today is his birthday~~ haha~~
but he at Johor now...
I don't know what I can say and wait for what...
I know he just a leagent admire only...
it's true~~ cause I wanna forget about today is his birthday le...
do u remember who I am ? can you remember who I am ?
I think you don't know who I am and don't know that I miss you sometime...
 I know that I will forget you soon...
why say like this?
I remember your name, your facebook, your look in school, your smile, your car number and your birthday only...
today is your birthday... but I got a little bit forget already...
so... I think I can forget you one day...
you really just a leagent admire...
is that? yap~~~
hehe~~
fight~~~ today wanna write all the novel and pass up le...
cause I fix the date is tomorrow wanna pass up le~~
gambateh~~ ^^

sad...

hei... everyone...
I am not crazy... Just midnight suddenly wake up only... Suddenly surprise and let me sad...
this really a suddenly dream...
suddenly surprise me and let me cry around 30 minutes...
Is it a dream? or it will be happened one day? Can it just a dream only?
It really let me surprise and let me feel scared...
this really a crazy and surprise dream...
I think the dream will not in my memory longer... I think I will forget one day...
But now I really cannot sleep after the dream...
When I wake u suddenly, the tear come from eyes suddenly...
I don't know can tell to anyone... cause it is midnight...
I want talk to him but I scared that I will disturb him...
So I don't have told anyone...
I just told to dear God... cause last time when I am doing 灵修 I learn that I need tell HIM and no always tell other persons... (conclusion say like this bah...)
all I scared is the dream...
I hope that it will not happened...
today is 7/1/2014 (Tuesday)... the first day that I cry and let me be scared...
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言语真的能伤害他人……
或许认为自己没留意，或者一直忘记，当作听不见，但是已经听见就会记住了……
所有的言语都会记在心里
无论是好是坏，都是会记在心里
但是坏的通常会被记住最深……
若有一天爆发，相信一定会让自己很伤心的……

target for 2014

hi everyone~~
long time no upload blog le...
5 days pass lo~~~ now upload again... haha~~
today nothing special lah~~~
I am in holiday+ing~~~
end of school already and haven't found the work again... ==
haha~~
I know my English become poor cause long time doesn't have learn, talk, hear and look at English things le...
English songs also become seldom le... but sometime also have lah~
now I am hardworking in writing novel...
today target is write at least 3 novels...
any topic and synopsis also can~
I also want to improve my English and go to learn Japan~~
I also need to read the Bible in this year~
I also want to read at least 100 Chinese books and 10 English books~~
hehe~~ don't give up o~~
this year also want to make 2 types cakes and 2 types cookies (all is 4 lah~)
During Christmas need to make a chocolate cake~~
This must do it!! cause I want to do this from form 4 until now le~~
Gambateh and don't give up~~ ^^