甜品……

今天该怎么说……
是难过的一天？还是悲哀的一天？
我真不知该怎么说……
只能说真的很难过……
学习烘焙，一位大家都会喜欢糕点、点心、蛋糕等
但我没想到，甜点师尽然不喜欢蛋糕，而且还在蛋糕面前说！
这真的让我吓一跳……
我真的没想到尽然从一个甜点师的口中说的！
我承认我没有能力，也没什么天份或创意，但是甜点连蛋糕师也不喜欢的话，那甜点们不是很难过吗？
虽然说我这个想法很天真，像个傻瓜一样，但对我来说，这是真的！
我以前做蛋糕的时候，也曾经不喜欢蛋糕，还说讨厌，结果屡次屡败；但有次喜欢蛋糕，做出的蛋糕果真不一样～
为何会这样？
身为甜点师不喜欢甜点的话，那怎么可能做出一个好吃的甜点呢？
我真的好难过……
老师也算了，连大部分的同学也这么书
我已经无力了
看着许多失败的蛋糕，我真的觉得心好痛
虽然说我使用暴力想把蛋糕从烤炉中拿出，那时候我承认我丢的很大力，可能蛋糕们都很难过吧……
他们的命运全都进垃圾桶了……
我真的觉得好难过
我好希望老师可以把讨厌蛋糕的那句话收回去
或许这想法真的很天真，但我认为一粒蛋糕反映出做的人的心里话啊！
我真的没有力，当我知道老师都不喜欢蛋糕
我没有任何力量或者能力去说他们，但我很希望他们能尊重蛋糕，虽然这么说很夸张，但是蛋糕、面包、甜点等，都是用面粉做成的啊！
我只希望他们能悠着点反思，然后跟蛋糕说声抱歉
这只是我的希望，我不会做什么，我只会看着，然后自己想自己的事而已
等到有一天，我有能力的时候，我一定要让大家知道做甜点一定要心存快乐、感激、尊重和爱戴；不然就算 手艺再好，做出来的甜点也一定不怎么好吃……
甜点，不一定要看手艺，而是要看心……

more sad little fun...

aiyo...
today got a little bit sad a...
don't know where can stress it out so post at here as stress it out gua...
today I go back to school because today I will stay at home alone...
My friend go to work and other go out with her family...
so I feel boring at home or I just watch anime at home...
while watch anime is my favourite but always watch TV will also feel boring...
so I ask teacher (can say teacher bah... but I call her ah ting), she told me go back to school with her lo~
hehe~~
so I back to school... but feel boring also lah...
because morning she goes to work I cannot help...
because I am a student... so I cannot give her a lot of help
so I wait her in the office...
bur finally I have read the novel done already~
so tomorrow I will write the feeling of the novel and email to the office~~
hehe~~
today my friends (can say more like classmates) come back to practice make the cake...
can say practice or make the cake for tomorrow need...
I also cannot give them help
because these are their practice
and also have other class for learning... our senior
after done the practice then I go inside
while I also cannot help a lot so I  just help ah ting wash the pandan leaf
but let me surprise is my classmates do not have help the senior do the hygiene!!!
I have heard that senior told one of the friend need mop the floor and he also has told the friends...
but I really don't know when they leave the classroom!!!!
really surprise me!
the senior got ask me but I don't know anything... one of the senior has help me say that I don't have come for the practice... I just come to help ah ting...
so the senior don't have say anything also... they do the hygiene and I ask to help, my friend which is the senior say it's okay... cause this is not my fault...
but I really feel sorry about them...
how can junior don't respect the senior?
how can they do like this?
why I always see the incidence?
I really can believe that KL person also like this!
because I really though KL person are kind and know how to respect other persons!
but I really surprise when I know my classmates don't have help the senior do the hygiene!
I also cannot say anything... because I also don't have help the senior...
I really feel sad...
I though back the incidence when I in Miri...
the junior don't respect the senior and other persons also!
how can there persons like this?
how can they don't need respect other persons but other persons need respect them?
I really don't know how to say!
I really feel sad and wanna cry already... how can like this?
respect one other and other persons respect you also...
I really feel sad...
after the senior back... ah ting and bo luo come back...
they continue do the work...
and this is one day for me...
at night watch the anime <Kuroko No Basket> but the person lose in the game!
so sad!!!!
I don't can imagine about the movie already...
I really cannot accept...
and then I also think back the other teacher (can say counter girl bah... liya), she told me that if I always scared at bo luo... they will though I like him
but I told her that I really scared about him...
then she said that they will though I am a 做作 girl...
I really feel sad and don't have anything to say...
I just try my best and told myself don't scared about bo luo already...
if really don't want let me scared him... I just can hate him...
this is the another plan that I can do...
cause last time I really scared about some persons...
but I don't hate them... cause they don;t have do anything wrong...
but if they really want I don't scared at the person...
one way that I can do is hate the person or like the person?
I will try my best to like the person... but when I saw him I will scared!
how can I try my best to like?
I really don't hate the teacher whose name is bo luo
and don't like him also...
but I really scared him...
today at school when I met him...
I try my best to run away...
he also noticed that and don't have beside me also...
he will stand at a little long distance and ask that I need help or not
the answer is no
I no need his help
I can do myself
so I refuse... but can say that I got talk to him...
but I also feel that he really don't want I scared at him...
I just can say I will try my best and tell myself don't scare...
but please give me sone time...
please... if force me... I think I will be crazy and hate the person...
don't think too much... I just scare at him...
nothing anymore...
please...
today is a day let me feel more sad and little fun...
but serious...
when I though something is fun is about my teacher, bo luo...

今天……TT

今天回学校做蛋糕，而且今天也是 Dear 的生日～～
我今天还真的很期待下～
因为今天做的蛋糕是关于榴莲～～
我的最爱啊～～
没想到榴莲也可以做蛋糕～～
而且今天又是欣茹的生日，觉得更要保持开心的笑容～～
今天又可以拿到小说了，开心一倍啊～～
今天会真的很开心又很期待～～
但是开心的事情真的好短暂啊……
我发现到我的组员都很强，都有练习过的了！！
妈妈咪呀！！！
原来我的组员都很强！！！
但我的直觉应该不算错吧……
他们真的对于做蛋糕没兴趣……
他们比较喜欢做包吧……
可是我爱做蛋糕，却不成功啊！！！
呜呜呜呜……
一想到这件事便好难过啊！！
今天涂 cream的时候，我真的觉得好尴尬……
副院长已经教过我一次，同组的组员也教了我一次，然后阿婷（也是老师，不过是负责厨房的），她也再次帮我，我真的觉得超级无比尴尬！ ！！最尴尬的事……我可以感觉到有很多眼镜看我这里啦！！！
超级无比的！！！！尴尬的说啊！！！！
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不过我真希望能练到更好啊！！
可是无论怎么弄……都觉得不好看啊！！！
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sad case a!!!
我尽然还因为这件事分神！！！
我尽然开热水来清洗用具，用热水是没问题，但是把手放在那边让它烫，我还真的没见过我能做出如此愚昧的事情啊！！！ ><
哎哟……最吓我的还是菠萝老师，他今天站在我旁边，说实话，无论我怎么说不怕他，是真的很难啊！！！虽然说不怕他了，可我还是很怕他啊！！
哎哟……结果把做多的榴莲蛋糕给他，才想起自己是不是很笨啊！！！
算了吧，如果真的被人讲的话，最多我做自己
反正我的朋友相信我就可以了～～
呵呵～～
加油吧！我不想放弃！虽然我做得很难看，而且真的好难掌握……
加油啊！！不要放弃啊！！
TT

fun~~

今天又再次发生一件好笑的事情～～
哇咔咔～～
今天去学校接婷婷放学～～
今天婷婷很幸运的被选到回校做蛋糕～～
其实我也是有机会的啦～
只是说，我比较慢才能回去……
how can say this a big sad case a~~
haha~~ but next time I also can back school make also lay~
I really hope that can back school soon a~~
I really want to make cake a~~~
I really miss the memo that can make cake and touch the apparatus that make cake~~
no the materials for the ingredients o~~
haha~~
I really like to type words~~
while a lot persons say I type the words so fast but I think it is okay only lah~
I just try my best to type the words as fast as soon I can ~~
hehe~~
anyway...
today go to the school, Silver Chef and I wait for ting ting around one and half hour a!!!
but I can smile the tasty of the cake~~
I really like it a lot~~~
so tasty~~~
She also can taste the products that made from the senior~~
超妒忌啊～～～
I also want to taste but cannot... sad case... TT
When I am waiting ting ting I go to the office and wanna chat with them, because waiting is really a boring thing need to do!!
haha~~
the persons at the counter heard that I come for playing and all call 菠萝！
WHAT!!!!
他们做么回知道的哦？除了菠萝本人和 OH GAWA ，做么还有其他人知道的？？！！
真是奇怪啊！！！
不过，我大概懂的啦～一传十，十传白～
会让他们知道也不奇怪啊～～
哈哈～～
但是婷婷之后跟我说菠萝再次跑去跟她说：跟你躲在后面的说不要怕，我只是比较严格
哈哈～～
我真的觉得很好笑啊～～～
原来我变成躲在后面的，哈哈～～
慢慢的说吧……
慢慢的可能就能适应了……
希望这位菠萝先生这几天先忍耐一下吧～～
哈哈～～
明天也做蛋糕，很期待，很开心～～
但我有点害怕明天看到他……
哈哈～～

miss...

miss him...
I really miss him...
I really miss everyone that at Miri...
my friends... my parents... and some persons they are important to me...
I really miss them all...
I hope I can meet them again but I think it's too hard...
miss...
really miss them...
now I at hostel alone...
but got little dog with me...
and book also...
I really miss everyone...
but I need study first...
I would not give up on study...
but I really got little bit miss him...

家…

今天做了个梦…
我梦见美里的家了…
看来我真的想家了…
说实话，如果你是因为醒来，我还真觉得这是一场不会结束的梦…
当我醒来时，我才知道这是一场梦…
没想到，我也会有想家的一天啊…
以前总是想快点离家，但现在却很想家…这就是大家口中的思念家园吧…
现在这里吃不饱，睡不好，而且很无聊…
虽然说在家也是蛮无聊的，可总觉得比外头好好玩…
在家也能吃得饱，睡得好…
现在真的蛮想家的…
尤其是家里好吃的…
真的想焦点回家…
可是，我知道我不能…
若真的想家，也要把书读完，拿到最棒的成绩才回家…
这是我一直告诉自己的！
不哭！很快就会结束的…
1年很快的…
加油！！！

他！

今天星期日，没去教会，因为怕迷路
下个星期希望能去教会了
今天可以说一整天都在看电脑，看《小马宝莉》
真是不错看，但一直看戏还是会累的……
下午哥哥找我出去，我先去他的宿舍
当我还没进他的宿舍时，哥哥叫人帮忙开门
我看见了一个人，一个我不敢相信的人！
是他！
一个一直在我心里，但却不怎么回忆的人！
我说真的，我有点呆了。我不敢进门，因为那人是他！
可之后，我知道那人不是他……
只是长得蛮像的……
我会错意了……
不知为何，我好希望见到他
哪怕一次也好了……
哈哈
算了，继续努力读书吧！
今天都没怎么碰书，哈哈～
考试一定要加油！！

14/2/2014

今天是情人节也是元宵节，但对我来说都没差啦～
情人节？我都没情人……
元宵节？我都不能与家人一起度过……
今天没有上课，所以我今天赖床～～～
搬来KL已经5天左右了，但是唯独今天赖床～～～
今天做了个梦……
做了这个梦后，我真的有点感觉想哭……
这场梦有一种似曾相似的感觉，但我却怎样都想不起来
这是个爱情梦吧……
梦的情景大概是这样的……
我们几个人是一群朋友，朋友中里面的其中一个男生追我
其他朋友都帮助他，而我却傻傻的还不知道；其实我是知道，而且我好像也喜欢他，只是我不想先接受。
有一次出去玩，我忘记什么原因他作弄我。
他作弄我到蛮过分。他拿了我喜爱的东西并把它们一一藏起来。
等我发现不见时，我慌张到哭泣。
那男孩似乎觉得愧疚，告诉我是他把东西藏起来时，我还是哭泣着骂他。
骂了一会，我就没理他，走掉去找宝贝。
那男的似乎很难过，想跟我和好却不知该怎么做。
朋友们就出什么注意说什么和好朋友节目？
（虽说是什么朋友节目，但其实他想要求原谅和告白）
这我就不是很清楚，但是这个朋友的节目之前就好像有梦过了。
那时候，他在里面等我。而他之后的样子，我一点都没印象了。
我回去他们那边时，我已经没看见他了。
我想他们拿了我的书包，把宝贝放进背包。
他们跟我说他在里面等我，先跟我和好，问我要不要进去。
我却不理会他们，拿了背包便走了。
我知道，我哭了。这时候就起床了，因为梦的结局就是这个了。
其实我试过再次躺下继续睡，但不成功。我一次都没睡着。
或许这就是结局了……
这场梦给我很大的启示和启发……
当我决定离开时，我们两就已经不可能了
但我现在想回头，却也不能回头了
但这场梦让我有写小说的启发了
这场梦，我会写长小说，就像《梦中情人》一样。
之后就不说梦，说今天的趣事
今天去学校的 library corner 找书复习～
不知为何来到 KL 后，我变得很怕生
婷婷和我一起去，结果上一批的学生做好蛋糕后进来，让我觉得好尴尬，立刻与婷婷赶紧走人
之后去办公室那边说下后准备回家
初办公室后，想把眼镜放回盒子先，怕弄坏
结果好笑的事开始了
一位导师，好像是叫菠萝的……
他出现！他问的问题全部都是婷婷回答；而我只是一直低头放眼镜后放回书包，便立即躲在婷婷身后
他就开始问他是不是很凶，然后开始解释
其实我懂了，我也告诉他；所以他也点头喔喔的说
好笑的事有人从办公门口出来，OH GAWA 就站在门口笑他，而他跟她说不准笑
我真的很想告诉他，他的口气很凶而已；因为他人根本感觉不会凶啊！
听婷婷说，他好像跟我说话都会笑，这么说好像是有，但口气凶的话，我真的会怕嘛……
哈哈～
今天觉得又有趣又难过～
哈哈～
难过是因为梦，小说的结局可能也是悲哀的吧……
而好笑的事情就是在学校遇到的事情，又尴尬又好笑～
今天真是愉快～
祝大家元宵节&情人节快乐～～

KL start~

hei~ I come to Kuala Lumpur already~
I at here around 4 days le~
today daddy back home to Miri and I stay with my friends in a hostel...
Yesterday went to attend the class...
but it's so hard and strict...
I hope I can do my best and get the best result~
I also hope that I can improve my English~
Cause these exam is use English to answer the questions...
I really hope that I can get the best result~
I also hope that I can stay with my friends and partner happily
I hope we have teamwork and help each other~
Dear God...
all of things please help me...
Thank you for your help and that you YOU give me a chance to challenge myself...
Say true...
I really miss my family...
I scared that I cannot adapt the lifestyle...
I hope I can do the best...
Dear God...
All please help...
Thank You

hei~

hei hei~
today got a long time travel~~
haha~~
today meet him already~
he's so funny~~
I really like his smile~
but he say he want quit the drama!!
what?!
okay... I cannot force him to stay in drama...
but I really hope he can always stay in drama...
cause he really got the ability...
hope he can think clearly and confirm what he want...
^^
just really hope can see your smile again~
thank God~ ^^
see you again~

come come~

today is the second day of the February~~
the time that I go to KL to study is near...
maybe I will miss here all things but also not~~ haha~~
see first lah~~
today I back to work again~
I type this post during I am working and use the computer that is for working~~
haha~~
today I don't have see the boy...
I heard from my partner the shop got another again
maybe he go there side already~
haha~~
I just though the boy is cute but cannot seem him again...
haiz...
it's okay lah~
I have my dear father, Jesus already~
What I need more?
I hope I will more believe HIM always put HIM in my heart~
hehe~
today wear cheongsam but come to work~ haha~~
have a happy day~ =)