post again ^^

really long time write blogpost already...
while got 2 days wanna write de...
but lazy...

17/4/2015
I met him again...
he at the bus... same bus with my sibu church friends...
when i saw him... I hope I saw wrong
but no...
is him...
I met him again...
how say? sad? happy? no feeling?
I fdon;t know which one is the true of my feeling...
sometime I miss him
but sometime no
is that you are the same person of Journal Low that I remember?
I cannot confirm le
I wish is but I wish no also
I hope u change...
and also hope u stay...
while you don't know who I am, but I know who you are...
I cannot be the special person in your life...
but I hope I can be the person which live in your world...
maybe it's just little bit or in a corner...
but I just can hope only...
because you in my life...
in a special corner...

8/5/2015
at kl le...
this is first time and really let me surprise...
a girl which is tarc student and last same for PR...
we have a little chat...
but she tell me her hurt...
while because I don't know her, she don't know me also...
so she told me...
while I know I really too easy believe a person...
I need change? I don't know...
but just hope I am me.
I always me.
I don't want be the person that I don't know who I am...
Just happy got a person chat with me and trust me? =')

9/5/2015
while now is 10/5 already...
but I really cannot le
I really wanna cry...
so sad...
got much bitter water wanna say...
but how?
Who I can tell?
but sometime really let me unhappy... angry...
no all persons are perfect...
no all persons can accept the others suggestions...
no all persons can trust you...
no all persons can be the listeners...
no all persons have same concept...
no all persons...
I know...
and I com misses myself one time and one time...
but it's really hard...
but now face one hard thing...
at here no enough cash for life...
maybe I waste a lot...
but also got a reason...
because always share with friends buy things...
but they no pay back...
I need ask again? last time don't have like this...
how can ?
she know I don't have enough cash but...!
I don't say anything...
just no share things with her le
so sad...
nothing to say...
really need to face something...
so sad... haha?
I really cannot smile again...
hard... it's hard...
If no wound cut me...
I really think I am a robot le...
no like a human... got emotion le...
why I cannot emo?
why I cannot sad?
is just because I always smile and always happy with you others?
why I cannot have emo...
why cannot let me alone one time...
let me go...
let me hurt...
while I know I alive if no the wound...
I really think one day I will die just because my emotion cannot be control...

While lot of things let me hurt... sad... angry...
but I believe GOD will help me
Jesus will help me
HIS love always with me...
thank you for YOU... dear Jesus... dear GOD...
thank you...